Emilie Kiser Reveals the Taylor Swift Song She Can’t Hear Without Crying After Losing Her Son

Emilie Kiser is still figuring out how to live with unfathomable loss, and on Friday, April 24, she let people in on what helps: music. Specifically, a Taylor Swift track that now reads like a grief diary entry.

The clip

The 27-year-old posted on TikTok about the song that hits the hardest since her 3-year-old son, Trigg, died in a drowning accident in May 2025. She said she does not usually want to get online and unpack the darkest stuff, but sometimes it feels useful to share the whiplash of grief because someone out there might need to hear it.

The lyric that leveled her

The song? Swift's 'My Tears Ricochet.' The line that stopped her cold: the idea that you can go anywhere you want — just not home. For Kiser, that captures the part of child loss that never loosens its grip. She talked about how almost everything she listens to now runs through a grief filter, and how that lyric perfectly sums up the fact that there is no going back to what life looked like before Trigg's drowning. Her words were raw: it is 's***y,' it is a daily reminder, and it sneaks up — she can be moving through a day, find a little joy, and then feel like she just got punched in the face and the gut.

What she is carrying now

She was clear-eyed about the present: everyone still has to keep living, and she wishes Trigg were here to live it with them. That tug-of-war of emotions is constant, and for her it shows up in songs, in things she sees, even through her other kids.

Fans showed up

The TikTok was captioned, 'I love running my errands with you guys,' and the comments were a digital group hug. One person wrote, 'Being homesick for a place that does not exist anymore,' which Kiser liked. Others kept it simple: 'Sending you the biggest hug Em,' and 'Grief is Love with no place to go.'

Her marriage, and forgiveness

Kiser has also addressed the hardest question she gets: how she forgave her husband, Brady, who was the only adult home when Trigg was found unconscious in their backyard pool. When a follower asked how she navigated that in their marriage, she did not sugarcoat it — therapy, consistency, and a decision to lead with empathy.

'You do not heal from the loss, you learn to live with the grief. Lots of therapy and consistently. As well as the realization that everyone deserves love, empathy, and forgiveness.'

The difficult context

• May 2025: News breaks that 3-year-old Trigg died after being found unconscious in the family ’s backyard pool.
• After the incident: Authorities recommended criminal charges against Brady.
• Later: The Maricopa County Attorney's Office declined to pursue charges, citing 'no likelihood of conviction.'
• March 2025: Emilie and Brady welcomed their son Theodore 'Teddy.'
• Friday, April 24 (about a year after Trigg's death): Emilie shares the TikTok about grief and the Swift song that mirrors it.

One more note

If you follow Kiser, you have probably noticed she has been open about therapy and the long haul of grief work. None of this is neat or linear, and she is not pretending it is. She is just trying to name it — and sometimes a lyric says the quiet part out loud for you.